I
AM
SORRY
.

I know its wrong.
I really do.
its just really difficult.
to say no.
I just did it.
BUT
I don't want to.
I swear.
the mere second of decision.
Made me full of guilt and sins.
I didn't mean to.
I know no one cares.
BUT.
still,
I feel bad.
Freaking BAD.
Just like when a kid
who has just told someone,
"i don't friend you.
and i won't lend you my ultra man action figure anymore."
This sucks.
more than anything.
It made me realise.
what i actually thought i was.
was wrong.
SUCKY.
SELFISH.
&
A FAILURE.
Thats me.
M-E. ME.
YES ME.
I didn't put myself
into your shoes.
You trusted me.
I trusted you.
And i did wrong.
Stuff were shared.
and
i listened.
& i told.
I know this is wrong.
i swear i do.
I tried to.
But
I gave in.
to temptations.
to pressure.
to just simple stuff.
To think that joy comes
is actually wishful thinking.
To relive today,
will be a total new
thing.
A
BLESSING
IN
DISGUISE.
Open my eyes
and see the world
as a new strawberry field
blooms from a cold winter.
only then,
simple things means great things.
visible or not.
i feel it.
deep inside.
love isn't a thing
its a possesion.
only then, i realise.
I don't mean much to the world.
but my mistake.
made me lose someone.
who meant the world
to be shrinked
into a mini soul&body
where everything gets into place.
just for the mere second.
only then, i realise.
I
AM
SORRY.

TO: _____
you might not know what i'm trying to say.
i just want to say that i'm REALLY sorry.
I feel bad.



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