Its amazing how something that is built over 2 months and 22 days,
just takes 1 minute and 21 seconds to destroy,
leaving nothing but broken pieces.

Its amazing how the way you love someone is so different,
so irrational, so betraying, so hurtful.

Its amazing how you'll never understand how I feel,
no matter how hard I try to explain over the phone, face to face, sms, through words, or pictures.

Its amazing how things turned out the way you promised me it won't,
broken, betrayed, worn out.

Its amazing how much emotion one can feel at one time.
Countless.

Its amazing how something so beautiful and captivating can be so hurtful and deadly,
killing, bit by bit, slowly, inside.

I realised,
the real kind of tired is not physical exhaustion,
its when you are psychologically and emotionally exhausted,
mentally and emotionally drained.
The next time you say you are tired,
think again.

We come and go alone,
we only need ourselves.

I know I will not be able to fulfill my promises to you on the 5th of September.
Still, I promised you.
I'm just trying to stall time, extending the moment where everything falls apart later.
Everyday I wake up and ask myself a very simple question.
"How, Shuxian, what are you going to do?"
And I'll get so nervous and stress but I'll just tell myself,
"I'll think about that tomorrow, theres still time"
It sucks to know that you are headed to disaster,
but still carrying on.

Because of this, I'm ready for anything, anything.
Whatever you say, I'll accept it.
Because I finally realised,
whatever that is suppose to happen, is bound to happen at the end.
No matter how hard I try to advert it, it'll still come knocking on my door.
Just a matter of time.
Why not save myself some trouble and effort, since whatever I do, will never change the facts.

There comes a time,
when you can't say: My God,
when the eyes don't cry anymore,
when the heart runs dry...

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